Psalm 31: trust as you wait upon The Lord

In you, O Lord, do I take refuge;

let me never be put to shame;

in your righteousness deliver me!

Into your hand I commit my spirit;

you have redeemed me, O Lord, faithful God.

But I trust in you, O Lord;

I say, "You are my God."

Be strong, and let your heart take courage,

all you who wait for the Lord!
(Psalm 31:1, 5, 14, 24 ESV)

David cries out in great distress again and again. Often he feels God has abandoned him: he feels his situation is hopeless. Yet he sits in the tension of despair and yet does not fully lose sight of God who is his hope and savior and fortress.

For my life is spent with sorrow,

and my years with sighing;

my strength fails because of my iniquity,

and my bones waste away.

Because of all my adversaries I have become a reproach,

especially to my neighbors,

and an object of dread to my acquaintances;

those who see me in the street flee from me.

I have been forgotten like one who is dead;

I have become like a broken vessel.

For I hear the whispering of many—

terror on every side!—

as they scheme together against me,

as they plot to take my life.

I had said in my alarm,

"I am cut off from your sight."

But you heard the voice of my pleas for mercy

when I cried to you for help.
(Psalm 31:10-13, 22 ESV)

Lord help me as I wait upon you. Give me strength and courage. Give me endurance and hope! Let me see you first and not see my life by my circumstances. For you are bigger than me and far bigger than my circumstances. Lord I am sorry for my worries and my small faith. Lord I believe but help my unbelief.
Amen