Passing alongside the Sea of Galilee, he saw Simon and Andrew the brother of Simon casting a net into the sea, for they were fishermen. And Jesus said to them, "Follow me, and I will make you become fishers of men." And immediately they left their nets and followed him. And going on a little farther, he saw James the son of Zebedee and John his brother, who were in their boat mending the nets. And immediately he called them, and they left their father Zebedee in the boat with the hired servants and followed him.
(Mark 1:16-20 ESV)
Like the disciples I have given up my career and plans to follow The Lord. But I was thinking what are the things I have been reluctant to let go of and give to God? Relationships, comfort, approval, and success are the biggest things I have been trying to give up but I feel myself holding on to them like things in a net that I am afraid to trust to The Lord. I appreciate the way that the disciples so quickly saw how following Jesus was worth letting go of careers, family, expectations. I think in some ways it would be easier to have a clean cut like they had.
Sometimes I think I have let go of these things but later find I have still been holding on covering it up with other acts of obedience. But in some part of me I am holding on to things like the hope of relationship as what my hope is in. I make my faith about being good enough to get what I want instead of about being faithful and experiencing the good God has for me.
Lord show me what it means to let go of my nets and my plans and hopes so that I can be with you! I am sorry I hold on so tightly and trick myself into thinking I have let go when I haven't.
Amen
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