Do I trust God's plans for me?

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28 ESV)

Do I trust this promise from God in two ways: that God knows what is good for me more than I do and that he can and will work all things for my good? Do I trust these things even when I often don't get what I want and in my free will I choose things that are often sinful and bring harm to me. Do I believe that my sin and free will has the final day or God?

I think it is important to keep this verse in context:

Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.
(Romans 8:26-30 ESV)

In this I find from verse 29 the important fact that of primary importance to God and to us in our eternity is to be conformed to the likeness of Christ. There are lots of things I think are good which may not move me towards Christ and his likeness in which case they may not really be good for me. Yet I often demand them and expect them from God.

An area I am really thinking about in this is relationships. I feel I made a mistake or missed out on something that was really good. So how do I wrestle with that. I believe God gives us free will to choose. Yet I feel I made a mistake that cost something good. How can God work this for my good if I missed out? First I think I have to remember Gods first priority is my salvation and conformity to Christ. In many ways who I marry as long as she is a Christian is not of primary importance. And since God lets us choose maybe what I chose isn't really a mistake and I didn't miss out on something better I just choose and acted on what I knew and thought and felt. Maybe I wish things were different but I didn't sin in this in particular. And I may wish something different happened but I am still in relationship with Christ and I can trust he still has good for me even if it is not what I want looking back and wishing things were different.

The reality as I look around is that most people who want to get married do so. That isn't really a realistic worry. A much more realistic reality is that many people walk away from The Lord and pursue sin, many people divorce, those things are of far more lasting and destructive result. If I gain the world or even just a wife now but lose my soul than I have gained nothing.

For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul? (Mark 8:36 ESV)

So Lord I pray not for you to change the past or to fix the future on what I think I want. You know better than I do what is good. Lord I do want relationship and those things. But instead I first want to pray you protect me from the evil one and from my own corrupt heart that draws me from you. Lord I pray in all things even in confusion over relationships I grow more in dependence and a clear of understanding of you. Lord I want to place my hope in your truth and not in you giving me what I want. For that is not who you are and points only to idols. Lord I want to trust and follow you alone.
Amen