Fight the battle well holding to faith ...

1 Timothy 18-20

18 Timothy, my son, I am giving you this command in keeping with the prophecies once made about you, so that by recalling them you may fight the battle well, 19 holding on to faith and a good conscience, which some have rejected and so have suffered shipwreck with regard to the faith. 20 Among them are Hymenaeus and Alexander, whom I have handed over to Satan to be taught not to blaspheme.

God I thank you that I am not alone. That in the struggles of life and faith and ministry you give us examples of not just perfect but real people in their real struggles. 

Lord I have been tempted to give up in so many ways. I am tempted to doubt my calling and wonder if it was my own willpower that brought me here. For in our struggle the devil seems to isolate us and then bring his lies all around us. 

I may not have heard the voice of God or prophecy clearly but there was something in my heart and mind that said yes: here am I. I will go. Lord I want others to come to know you. I prepared and applied and interned and then said yes to this work for your kingdom on the CU campus. Lord would you help me recall why I started this journey of ministry. Would you help me celebrate the little things along the way. 

God give me the strength and willpower to fight the battle well holding on to faith and a good conscience. I don't know how, but help me to turn to you and depend on you. 
Amen